When I'm silent.. That's when the commotion erupts in my mind..and thoughts tumble into words..
When thoughts turn into words..
I know you won’t read this, but I really had to thank you.
Thank you for coming into my life, when everybody was leaving.
And making the stupid chotu, a person who knows how to enjoy and live life.
I learnt how to love my life, how to be happy.
Breaking rules, saying dialogues of entire movies, watching the stars at night..
I really miss each bit of you.
A very Happy Birthday to the Sr. Shitu :*
Happy Birthday Anupam..
- Shitu.
People think depression is about being sad. They think it’s just when you feel low. ITS NOT. It’s like a darkness that creeps over you and fills you. It drains all your emotions. It takes everything away from you, and leaves you hollow and numb. Its not sadness, its not anger, its hopelessness. Imagine waking up and there being no colour? Its more like that, Walking outside and feeling no wind, eating a meal and tasting nothing, being in room filled with people rather friends and still feeling alone. When you are depressed, its not a bad mood, its numb, empty, hollowness which never seems to leave and keeps dragging life. You basically don’t know what to do, where to do, how to do, its a feeling of being worthless and hopeless.
Source - Stormtrooper
I wish people would understand how I feel.
Holding your hand.. A feeling that I still crave for..
Makes me feel like I am safest with you.. Nothing can touch me while you are with me.. Holding my hand.. Tight as you can..
Our fingers interlocked.. Pressing against each other tight.. Not willing to let go.. The warmth of your big hand against my small one in which mine fits so snugly..Those moments make me feel glad I found you..
Waiting to hold your hand again..
Sometimes, I just lie down the same way. Randomly thinking about my dreams, trying to pinpoint the million thoughts buzzing in my head. Wondering about my future, worrying about my present, whining about my past.
Just smiling at my memories, trying to fit my life into a movie reel, wondering of my reactions in particular situations.
Making up my life story as I would like it to be.. Playing with my hair.. All alone.. In solitude..
Sometimes, I feel happiest when I am on my own.
Feeling really glad Atleast I love me :)
